Act I & Change
Today my spirit is heavy because change is happening and I don't want it to. I know there is nothing I can do so I will simply step back and let the change happen.
Act I is complete. Gloria is in the cave alone today. She is cleaning up sound, music and adjusting levels in order for us to view ACT I in its entirety tomorrow. I am excited - a little nervous but excited. Nervous because initially when you are editing individual scenes you are living in a small and very manageable world. As you start to put those scenes together, the world becomes more complicated and the issues start to become glaring. I know the process well. I know how it feels to have a break through in the edit room and I know how it feels to be on the verge of giving up, pounding your head against the wall. I know that one simply has to stick it out when it seems impossible and eventually a breakthrough will come. Those breakthroughs will happen in the oddest of places: in the shower when I am washing my hair; as I turn over in the middle of the night, wake up for a few seconds and in the dark come upon it, saying to myself "remember this in the morning" and somehow later remember; as I watch a woman walk down the street; or as I listen to a song...the answers always come.
With those answers come change. A changing order of scenes, changing characters, changing intentions, changing mood or tone, and even downright babies left unchanged but cut out on the edit room floor. I can deal with these changes fairly well. Sure I will fight for the ones I believe in but I like to think that I am fighting for them, not because of my ego but because I believe they make the story better. Sometimes I win, sometimes I lose, but in the end I can honestly say the changes have always been for the greater good of the story.
Now in life, change just ain't that clean-cut. The fights don't end outside of the edit room & the sacrifices are slashes into the heart. How I wish I could tweak what she said, delete what I did and change that person's intentions. Alas all we can do is react to what happens and try and create a better world. That is what I am trying to do, create a better world...
Act I is complete. Gloria is in the cave alone today. She is cleaning up sound, music and adjusting levels in order for us to view ACT I in its entirety tomorrow. I am excited - a little nervous but excited. Nervous because initially when you are editing individual scenes you are living in a small and very manageable world. As you start to put those scenes together, the world becomes more complicated and the issues start to become glaring. I know the process well. I know how it feels to have a break through in the edit room and I know how it feels to be on the verge of giving up, pounding your head against the wall. I know that one simply has to stick it out when it seems impossible and eventually a breakthrough will come. Those breakthroughs will happen in the oddest of places: in the shower when I am washing my hair; as I turn over in the middle of the night, wake up for a few seconds and in the dark come upon it, saying to myself "remember this in the morning" and somehow later remember; as I watch a woman walk down the street; or as I listen to a song...the answers always come.
With those answers come change. A changing order of scenes, changing characters, changing intentions, changing mood or tone, and even downright babies left unchanged but cut out on the edit room floor. I can deal with these changes fairly well. Sure I will fight for the ones I believe in but I like to think that I am fighting for them, not because of my ego but because I believe they make the story better. Sometimes I win, sometimes I lose, but in the end I can honestly say the changes have always been for the greater good of the story.
Now in life, change just ain't that clean-cut. The fights don't end outside of the edit room & the sacrifices are slashes into the heart. How I wish I could tweak what she said, delete what I did and change that person's intentions. Alas all we can do is react to what happens and try and create a better world. That is what I am trying to do, create a better world...
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